Monday, March 12, 2007

Musical Monday----attempted all on my own

Hope this works.

Didnt really have a specific song stuck in my head.....

I generally choose country music to listen to, although I do like many types. And since we just got a country station back...I decided you all needed some country. So off searching youtube for something to post, I found a shania twain doing ac/dc....and ac/dc song I love....didnt like her doing it....which is odd because I normally like shania....

Kept searching and found this video. It is 2 songs being done as a duet between shania and Elton John, who I also love. I like the first song, the best of the two.




Ok so here is another....LOL
I love this song.....I think it is really pretty....once again more country...but I am not a huge Randy travis fan


and in honor of how I spent my Sunday.....I actually saw these guys perform

Quote of the week

From Rebekah

My body is a disaster inside, I'm serious. With all those bones and stuff -- DISASTER!

Friday, March 09, 2007

I speak greek

or perhaps it it Latin...
whatever it is, I had no idea I spoke it

At least I assume that is why "stay out of the Game closet" isnt understood.

We have games, we have alot of games, we dont play them nearly enough but we have lots......which means while on shelves, they are stacked. I have no problem with my kids playing games. But, they need to #1 ask, #2 let someone get them out, & #3 play only one at a time.

Nope couldnt do it....for what seems like the 3rd time this week, we have had a child in the game closet. Mostly child #2.

Today, the dug out Battle ship. Which was on a shelf higher then she is tall. Which meant a mess......but this time, it was a huge mess......at least 7 games are still sitting on my bed in pieces.....

I have placed them on a high shelf in my closet. well not all, the ones still on my bed sit there.
Stratego is missiong on piece...yes ONE, sorry is missing, I think, a green player, aggravation (HEY THAT ME RIGHT NOW) is missing 2 green pegs, payday and lifes money is everywhere....
And candyland will be the game that never ends.....because it has one board and 2 cards....yep 2....and come to think of it.....no players.....
Payday is also missing a few "players" and I didnt count life.....but I found a car on the floor.....
I didnt actually check scrabble....I put the tile I found on the floor in the box and shoved it away.

My husband said "I'll take care of it" when I called to whine to him. I dont think he grasped the mess. I think he will still think I didnt pick up any of it when he sees our bed.

oh and the lunch that she didnt finish that kept her home, still not finished.

I dont think I need coffee at the block tonight......I think I need a drink....but I wont because I am driving.

This week in my life....

and if I dont get bored you might hear about next.

As I type this my youngest daughter is SOBBING in between beating her brother up. She wont eat her lunch and thus did not get to go fishing with dad.....
And I am listening to a spring training game on the radio. I think one is on tv this weekend.

Lets work backwards first.
Today
Christine is took and SIGN1 midterm. Rebekah did not go. She thinks it is because she did not behave last week, and while that is true, she did not go mostly because of the midterm. After the midterm, I picked her up and delivered her at Disneyland with her friends, a group of homeschooling teens. She also ran into one of her and DH's shooting buddies (who DH is now fishing with). Tonight is the montly sign/deaf meetup at the block.

Thursday
Rebekah went to Grandmas in the AM to work on writing, reading, math. Rebekahs version says it was all writing(printing) practice. While she was there, I took the other 2 to some thrift stores. Christine was looking for a pair of brightly colored pants, as her friend deemed Friday, Brightly colored pants day.
After the thrift store adventure, it was time for girlscouts.....


hmmm
ya know what, this style of blogging isnt me.....detailing events as opposed to my normal ramblings which may or may not include what i have done over the week.
so the post will end now....

Books: an updated list

Well, last time I said I would read something cheery and easy....I didnt....my last book took me forever....it was good but meaty and lots to think about. It looks like my current read, one I just grabbed off my desk, wasnt even on my last list so, I have added it. Bold indicates changes



1)"My Ox is Broken" by adam-troy Castro
2) "Republic" by Plato (suggestion courtesy of will smith)
3) "The heart's Code" by Paul Pearsall
4) "The Innocent Man" by John Grisham
5) "Green River, Running Red" by Ann Rule
6) "My Michael" by Amos Oz
7) "At First Sight" by Nicolas sparks
8) "Japanese woman dont Get Old or Fat" by Naomi MOyarama
9) "flight from Heaven" by Jan Karon
10) "The Pursuit of Happyness" by Chris Gardner
11) "Island of Hope, Island of Tears" by David Brownstone and company
12) "Ellis Island Interviews" by Peter Mortan Coan
13) "Flood" by Andrew Vacchs
14) "How Children Raise Parents" by Dan B Allender
15) "its My Heart" by The Childrens Heart Foundation so the next time I am asked at a picnic I can give a "real response"
16) "The parents guide to children's Congenital Heart Defect" by Kramer and Mauer...same reason as above
17) "Partners fo the Heart" by Vivien Thomas, autobiography
18) "God, Guns, and rock n roll" by Ted Nugent
19) " 100 People who are screwing Up America (and al Franken is #37) by Bernard Goldberg
20) "Einstein Never Used Flash Cards" by Kathy HIrsh-Pasek and Roberta Michnick Golinkoff
21) "Every Second Counts, The Race to Transplant the First Human Heart" by Donald McRae
22) "Freedom Writers Diary" by The freedom writers with Erin Gruwell
23) "DaVinci for Dummies"
24) "In This Sign" by Joanne Greenberg
25) "Mayada: Daughter of Iraq" by Jean Sasson
26) "Brave New World & Brave New World Revisited" by Aldous Huxley
27) "Night" by Elie Wiesel
28) "Stolen Lives: 20 years in a Desert Jail" by Malika Oufkir
29) "Sinister Shorts" by Perri O'Shaughnessy
30) "Fingernail Moon" by Janie Webster

if you want to purchase any of these, do me a favor go to www.caheartconnection.org and click on the amazon link on the left and then buy them.....

SOOOO what are you reading????
besides this post....

a challenge for dan

ha ha
going to update my book list in a few......
so when he does his weekly round up, he will be forced to choose between my really exciting book list or teasing me on the fact that my musical mondays was done by my daughter because I couldnt figure it out. (or actually my brain was too taxed to wrap it around the concepts)

Maybe I will blog more later.....

maybe my own what we did this week and what is on the schedule for the upcoming days.

Monday, March 05, 2007

Musical Monday: Paul Simon

Despite the directions being right at Dan's blog, my mom relies on me to do her "Musical Monday" post. She said the thought of choosing a song was scary, so I volunteered to choose one for her... That was shot down, so here you have it:

"You Can Call Me Al" by Paul Simon [live]



You can check MY musical Monday post here, which is surely much better.


PS by blog owner
I originally picked this because not only do I like the song, I like the original video which of course was not on youtube

Thursday, March 01, 2007

for a cause.....

Tis the season, I suppose....

I have received a few emails about walk athon, jog a thon etc type of things....I thought I would share them here for anyone interested.


For Diabetes, a bikeathon

For Breast Cancer


I am sure to get more, I usually get a March of Dimes one too.....

Also I have 2 "up-trade" sites:
Money for old rope
He currently has a football/soccer jersey up for trade...He started with a piece of rope

next is
Special zipper
Currently the item up for trade is a set of Dennis Lillee prints
Tim started with a zipper.

But, here is a really simple one for ya'...all you have to do is your normal grocery shopping, if you have an Albertsons card....AND if you already have your albertsons card linked to some organization, you can actually split the donations between up to 3 groups and determine which percentage each one gets.

Albertson's Community Partners
Just link your Albertson's Savings Card to California Heart Connection and you will help us every time you shop! Just call 1-877-932-7948 to link your Albertson's card to us - or do it online:
1. Go to Albertsons Community Partners.
2. Log In - enter your Albertsons number and your phone number
3. Click on 'Find A Partner" and search for "California Heart Connection"
4. Choose California Heart Connection - that's it!



Ok enough worthy cause for awhile from me ......
unless you shop at amazon, then I will add one more....
go to www.caheartconnection.org
scroll down to the amazon link, click on it and shop.....as long as you click thru that link, amazon gives California Heart Connection a bit of the profit.

If anyone else has something I missed, leave a comment and let me know, unless it is an AHA walk....then to quote dan "bugger off"

ITS HERE! ITS HERE

Yah my daughter will have some smart ass comment to make about this post but

ITS HERE! ITS HERE!
Baseball season has begun.....I sit here listening to The Angels vs the royals spring training game.

I love baseball.

Ervin Santana is pitching.....the angels are at home at Tempe Diablo Stadium. They havent come up to bat yet....still the top of the first but, still the season has begun!

Tuesday, February 27, 2007

Totally bored

for the moment. So, I will blog....I have no idea about what...
Waiting for Ivan and christine to return. Christine is at dance and then they are picking up chinese food....my tongue is not metallic but I will still use chopsticks....at least until I am bored with them.
(If that makes no sense, read my profile)
Not enough time to really read, they should be here soon.
Yesterday....
the chili came out pretty good. Good enough that some was even eaten as leftovers....
and I felt like crap....I feel better today....my ear hurt....to go with my lovely (insert sarcasm) seasonal sinus ca ca....my ear hurt....I couldnt touch it hurt. I warned christine last night that I might have a dr appt today but when I woke up it felt much better.....
What else is new?
hmm oh yah it looks like child number 3 has decided to use the potty......he is double tamsyn age (shut up dan) and it took serious bribbery (everytime you pee I will give you candy) but he now wears underware all day long. He figured out on his own what the hole in the front of the underware is for lol...well hey this is a better topic then the current pdheart conversation.

OH goody I hear Rebekah and Nathan hollering about a mess upstairs.....that never works out well.

I can't believe I am trying to plan something for summer already. Rebekah wants to go to camp del corozan this summer....christine is interested in Catalina Sea Adventure and she is doing a "silent weekend" in July. I actually got a brochure today from a local marine museum for their camps.

Girl Scout cookies are in.....I missed yesterday's pick up....next available saturday early evening. I will prob end up waiting til next week's meeting.....Saturday is going to be tough. Then I have to ship them out.....

TAR
That would be The Amazing Race
I am a total addict. I was bummed that Kevin and Drew were last but, Drew was just not ready for it. According to the insider videos, he is in pretty bad physical health and that just led to misery for him. I watched their arrival to the sequester area and he seemed more like the drew I remembered from the first season. I am still hoping Rob and Amber go home soon. While they really do make a good racing team, I am sick of them.

OH I think dinner might be here

Monday, February 26, 2007

What's for dinner?

So, what are you making? I am always looking for something new.
Todays is a recipe from a friends Live journal....I could save myself alot of time and link you there but, I believe the entry is a private one....so you would see nothing.
Its a crockpot recipe, which generally means easy which fits my first requirement for a new recipe...
It is originally called Brett Favre chili but, her son renamed it 49er chili.


1 1/2 lb ground beef
2 med green and/or red sweet peppers, chopped
2 stalks of celery chopped
1 sm onion, chopped
1/2 cup sliced green onions
2 cloves garlic, minced
1 15-16oz can kidney beans, rinsed and drained
1 14 oz can of diced tomatoes, undrained
1 14oz can diced tomatoes with garlic, undrained
1 140z can diced tomatoes with green chilis, undrained
1 10oz can cream of mush soup
1 1.25 oz pkg chili seasoning mix
1 tablespoon chili powder
1/2 tsp creole seasoning or 1/4 cayenne pepper
1/4 tsp salt
1/8 tsp ground black pepper

In large skillet, cook ground beef until no longer pink, drain off fat. In crockpot,stir together all ingredients including ground beef. Cover and cook on low for 7-8hrs or high for 3-4.

I skipped the creole/cayenn pepper as I am serving it to small children.
So far my house smells pretty good.
I think I will serve corn muffins with it....

SOOOOO what are you having....
(Hmm i think my favorite word, at least to type, might be so)

A tag from my daughter

I think she should fill this out for me.....she hears me talk, she knows what my favorite words are.....


What is your favorite word?

What is your least favorite word?

What turns you on [creatively, spiritually or emotionally]? reading....rather a book, a story or even a blog

What turns you off?

What is your favorite curse word? I think I like them all the same....although I bet I use shit alot

What sound or noise do you love? I dunno....the waves crashing on an otherwise silent beach in the dark, or the silent but yet noisey sound you discover when camping out in the woods

What sound or noise do you hate? finger nails on a chalk board, that annoying beep on the atm waiting for your deposit envelop....crashes coming from upstairs....because I just know that means a mess

What profession other than your own would you like to attempt? hmm I kinda like being a mom....can I be a mom with more time?...otherwise I dont feel much like attempting anything right now....

What profession would you not like to do? executioner....(although I do find something morbidly fascinating with the death penalty)

If Heaven exists, what would you like to hear God say when you arrive at the Pearly Gates? "Welcome, you did a fine job."

Wednesday, February 21, 2007

Today

Today it has been 2 years since a dear friends daughter died. She was a beautiful, spirited little girl...so much like my own middle child also afflicted with a congenital heart defect that try and she might, she just couldn't overcome.
I met her dad, her mom and her before she was even born. I consider them dear friends who will certainly get a visit from me if I ever make it to England(better move now and leave no forwarding address, Dan). And her passing is prob one of the ones that affects me the most. I saved most of the emails received during her final stay in the hospital. And even re-reading them brings a tear to my eye. I wanted so much for this not to happen to my friend. I have seen it happen to many, I have attended funerals for some but none have ever hit me so hard. I remember my phone ringing in the very very early morning hours, bringing me the horrible news. I remember it like it was yesterday, not 2 yrs ago. I couldn't tell you what was said but, gosh do I remember it. Phone calls in the middle of the night never bring good news. I remember when our upstairs phone broke and I insisted on replacing it because you cant hear the other phone in our bedroom and I would never want to miss one of those calls.
I know my grief pales in comparision to her mum and dads. I just can't imagine what they feel. I would like to be able to say, that she obviously had a purpose here and without her I would have never have met her parents but, it is so hard to say...she was just an innocent and beautiful little girl.
I would insert a picture here but I don't know how.
I encourage anyone who might read my blog (I don't think their are many that don't already read Dan's)to visit Dans blog....it is at the side and is called "0ddness". Read his beautiful tribute to a beautiful girl and take a look at some of her photos.

I hate CHDs....but sadly they have brought me some of my dearest friends. Friends I am glad to have but I wish I had never met.

The amazing race

Ok so who watched?
I felt jipped.....spent so much time on what the teams have learned since their first race or worse yet, what do they think of Rob and amber....that we didnt get to see alot of the scenery and the place they were.....
For a more thorough review including links to places they went visit the blog listed at the side called "The Show must go on"

New Update to book list

Have read a few more books....
Took one I read and set it free in the wild.....via bookcrossing.com......seems a little silly but was kinda fun and I dont feel like I am throwing it away....

Wonder what I will read next.....need something cheery...and easy....


1) "My Ox is Broken" by adam-troy Castro
2) "Republic" by Plato (suggestion courtesy of will smith)
3) "The heart's Code" by Paul Pearsall
4) "The Innocent Man" by John Grisham
5) "Green River, Running Red" by Ann Rule
6) "My Michael" by Amos Oz
7) "At First Sight" by Nicolas sparks
8) "Japanese woman dont Get Old or Fat" by Naomi MOyarama
9) "flight from Heaven" by Jan Karon
10) "The Pursuit of Happyness" by Chris Gardner
11) "Island of Hope, Island of Tears" by David Brownstone and company
12) "Ellis Island Interviews" by Peter Mortan Coan
13) "Flood" by Andrew Vacchs
14) "How Children Raise Parents" by Dan B Allender
15) "its My Heart" by The Childrens Heart Foundation so the next time I am asked at a picnic I can give a "real response"
16) "The parents guide to children's Congenital Heart Defect" by Kramer and Mauer...same reason as above
17) "Partners fo the Heart" by Vivien Thomas, autobiography
18) "God, Guns, and rock n roll" by Ted Nugent
19) " 100 People who are screwing Up America (and al Franken is #37) by Bernard Goldberg
20) "Einstein Never Used Flash Cards" by Kathy HIrsh-Pasek and Roberta Michnick Golinkoff
21) "Every Second Counts, The Race to Transplant the First Human Heart" by Donald McRae
22) "Freedom Writers Diary" by The freedom writers with Erin Gruwell
23) "DaVinci for Dummies"
24) "In This Sign" by Joanne Greenberg
25) "Mayada: Daughter of Iraq" by Jean Sasson
26) "Brave New World & Brave New World Revisited" by Aldous Huxley
27) "Night" by Elie Wiesel
28) "Stolen Lives: 20 years in a Desert Jail" by Malika Oufkir
29) "Sinister Shorts" by Perri O'Shaughnessy

Saturday, February 17, 2007

Public Service announcement

The Amazing Race starts tomorrow, sunday feb 18 at 8pm PST on your local CBS station.

Ignore the fact that it is an all stars addition and that rob and amber need no more air time.....just tune in for the locations!

Friday, February 16, 2007

Links at the side UPDATED

Going to draw a bit of attention to my sidebar.

First under blogs I read....
Congrats are in order for one of them. He is a shooting buddy of Ivan's and Christines. And while, quiet in person, quite amusing online. Good guy, spent some time with him and his girlfriend fiance.

Also, I have added another link...CHDA, inc...friend of mine on the east coast's CHD support group.
look around, its a treasure hut....find Rebekahs picture on that website.

Nance---you are now listed :)

Along with Little Lincoln Carter's blog.....guy has been waiting quite some time for a heart and he got one a few days ago....follow his progress.

I will be adding more links to my sidebar eventually, it takes me some time to get to it.....

Book list updated

I finished "Night" by Elie Wiesel. I enjoyed the book....good non fiction read about WW2, specifically the Nazis and life in a concentration camp. I, however, wish he has written a bit more....I would have loved to know what he did after liberation.....did he go dig up what his father buried?
Anyhow, I hope to update the list again in a few days, I am in the middle of another book on my list.
I have recently run across lists of what are considered classics for adults and young adults. I am surprised at how few I have actually read. I always read ALOT as a kid....and it was hard to ever find me without a book. I think I will be adding some of what I missed to this list.....the list really made be feel inadequate lol.....
Christine and some friends have joined a local Homeschool book club with the focus being classics. I think I will "read along" with them. This month's book is "The Phantom Tollbooth" while, not an adult classic, it is definitely considered a youth classic and I have never read it.



1) "My Ox is Broken" by adam-troy Castro
2) "Republic" by Plato (suggestion courtesy of will smith)
3) "The heart's Code" by Paul Pearsall
4) "The Innocent Man" by John Grisham
5) "Green River, Running Red" by Ann Rule
6) "My Michael" by Amos Oz
7) "At First Sight" by Nicolas sparks
8) "Japanese woman dont Get Old or Fat" by Naomi MOyarama
9) "flight from Heaven" by Jan Karon
10) "The Pursuit of Happyness" by Chris Gardner
11) "Island of Hope, Island of Tears" by David Brownstone and company
12) "Ellis Island Interviews" by Peter Mortan Coan
13) "Flood" by Andrew Vacchs
14) "How Children Raise Parents" by Dan B Allender
15) "its My Heart" by The Childrens Heart Foundation so the next time I am asked at a picnic I can give a "real response"
16) "The parents guide to children's Congenital Heart Defect" by Kramer and Mauer...same reason as above
17) "Partners fo the Heart" by Vivien Thomas, autobiography
18) "God, Guns, and rock n roll" by Ted Nugent
19) " 100 People who are screwing Up America (and al Franken is #37) by Bernard Goldberg
20) "Einstein Never Used Flash Cards" by Kathy HIrsh-Pasek and Roberta Michnick Golinkoff
21) "Every Second Counts, The Race to Transplant the First Human Heart" by Donald McRae
22) "Freedom Writers Diary" by The freedom writers with Erin Gruwell
23) "DaVinci for Dummies"
24) "In This Sign" by Joanne Greenberg
25) "Mayada: Daughter of Iraq" by Jean Sasson
26) "Brave New World & Brave New World Revisited" by Aldous Huxley
27) "Night" by Elie Wiesel
28) "Stolen Lives: 20 years in a Desert Jail" by Malika Oufkir
29) "Sinister Shorts" by Perri O'Shaughnessy

Thursday, February 08, 2007

American Heart Association & CHD's

Please read the following post....it is as close as I get to a CHD awareness week post, should you be moved to do something, or give something, visit the links in the side bar for how you can. California Heart Connection is a local support group I co-founded.....
CHIN, I also belong to, it is a nationwide support group.

****this is stolen from a friend, with her permission****


Why donate to an organization that does little for CHD Research, Support,
Awareness and Education,
when you can donate to CHIN or CHF which is only about CHD??


The same conversation every year... It doesn't change at all.

The AHA in general (as there are a very few good offices) does not promote
CHD at all. This year they have changed CHD to CCD and mentions it on many
of their press releases:

Excerpt from an AHA email :

PS- In honor of Day of Hearts- Congenital Heart Defect Day- on February
14th, invite a friend to join the _You're the Cure_
(http://www.capitolconnect.com/yourethecure/index.aspx) network.

Yet, when you go to You're the Cure, it is only about acquired heart
disease, strokes and Go Red.

Excerpt from their site:
Heart Disease and Stroke Research
The National Institutes of Health (NIH), America’s premier medical research
facility, supports research dedicated to “acquiring new knowledge to help
prevent, detect, diagnose and treat disease and disability.”
Heart disease, stroke and other cardiovascular diseases remain America’s
leading cause of death. They affect more than 71 million Americans and cost this
nation more than any other disease. Despite the enormous burden these
diseases place on our nation, NIH heart and stroke research remains
disproportionately under funded, especially in light of the many promising scientific
opportunities that could advance the fight against these diseases.
The NIH invests only 7 percent of its budget on heart research and a mere 1
percent on stroke research. Please help us dramatically increase funding for
NIH heart and stroke research.


The AHA has added Congenital Cardiovascular Disease (notice name change) to
most of their documents including the national proclamation. Though it is
added, there is nothing mentioned regarding it. I believe and again this is
my opinion, that there is not a cure for CHD and their whole
concept is be the cure!



_http://www.whitehouse.gov/news/releases/2007/02/20070201-2.html_
(http://www.whitehouse.gov/news/releases/2007/02/20070201-2.html)


American Heart Month, 2007
A Proclamation By the President of the United States of America
Heart disease is the leading cause of death in the United States, claiming
hundreds of thousands of lives each year. During American Heart Month, we renew
our commitment to fighting cardiovascular disease by increasing public
awareness of this deadly disease and understanding of how it can be prevented.

(http://www.whitehouse.gov/news/releases/2007/02/images/20070201-2_d-0245-6-700v.html) Today, millions of Americans live with some form of cardiovascular
disease, including congenital heart disease, coronary heart disease, and
high blood pressure. Individuals can reduce their chance of developing these and
other types of heart disease by exercising regularly, maintaining healthy
eating habits and weight, avoiding tobacco use, and monitoring cholesterol and
blood pressure levels. All Americans should speak with their doctors about
the dangers of this disease and get regular preventive screenings.
Where does the underlined benefit CHD??

and trust me, it took us years to get CHD added by writing the White House
consistently every year.. I am not sure what year they started, I believe
2005. and that was due to my many conversations with the staff and the letters
each one of us wrote.


C.H.I.N. is a national organization that provides reliable information,
support services, financial assistance and resources to families of children with
congenital heart defects and acquired heart disease, adults with congenital
heart defects, and the professionals who work with them.


CHF's Role in the Fight Against Congenital Heart Defects

We believe that research is the best way to win the battle against
congenital heart defects – research that will impact children now and in the future
and ultimately save lives. To date, The Children's Heart Foundation has funded
_30 research projects_
(http://childrensheartfoundation.org/research_funded.htm) with $2.5 million. Each year, we fund the most promising congenital heart
defect research under the direction of our Medical Advisory Board – 31
leading doctors in the fields of cardiology, pediatrics and cardio-thoracic
surgery.


The most bothersome is they rent their membership lists!

_http://www.americanheart.org/presenter.jhtml?identifier=10000046&title=Reques
t to Rent Membership Lists_
(http://www.americanheart.org/presenter.jhtml?identifier=10000046&title=Request%20to%20Rent%20Membership%20Lists)


Being a member of CHIN, I need not worry about confidentiality!


So I ask again, why donate to an organization that does little for CHD
Research, Support, Awareness and Education, when you can donate to CHIN or CHF
which is only about CHD??

Tuesday, February 06, 2007

AHA!

That A-HA
not AHA like american Heart Association....

Rebekahs sleep had been really bad....really light if she did but mostly insominac like....just different....hence the previous entry about her foot....

Listening to her "spaz" on Sunday night, a thought occurred to me as I lay in bed....they upped her flonase dose, the same day that she began to have REAL problems....

Quick google revealed, while sleep issues are not an official flonase side effect, many user report sleep issues....sleepless ness or easily awaken/disturbed.....

Decided we would back the dose back down.....then monday she has a wound care follow up and I mentioned it....the NP said dont lower the dose right now....switch to morning dosing as opposed to night....

Monday night and tonight....she is being her old self....refusing to sleep of course but totally on purpose as opposed to that nervous, I cant sit still one from a few days ago....